Mr. Ruiz insists he does not dislike whites. He cites his friendship with Mr. Valdes as an example of his open-mindedness, just as Mr. Valdes uses their relationship to establish that he is not racist. And talking to the two men, watching them in one of their rare times together, it is impossible not to feel their fierce loyalty and genuine affection.
Yet both also know that theirs is now mostly a friendship of nostalgia. They are adults with ambitions and jobs and bills to pay, they point out, with little time to talk on the phone. When they do they seldom discuss anything beyond their families in Cuba or how busy they are with work.
When it comes to race, Mr. Ruiz will give his friend the benefit of the doubt. Mr. Ruiz is proud that when he turned 30 in February, Mr. Valdes ventured to black Miami for the party at Annie Mae's. ''I understand that it is more difficult for him to cross the line than it is for me,'' Mr. Ruiz says. ''It's not his thing and I respect that.''
Mr. Valdes seems uncharacteristically thoughtful when discussing his friend's life. His friend, he says, has chosen to live as a black man rather than as a Miami Cuban.
''If I were him, I would get out of there and forget about everybody else's problems and begin my own life,'' he says. ''If he stays it is because he wants to.''
Mr. Ruiz thinks his friend cannot possibly understand. Even after he moved in April to an apartment south of Miami to escape the pressures of his needy relatives, Mr. Ruiz could not cast his family or his blackness aside. He spends most of his time back in Allapatah, near the bar and the neighbors who have embraced him.
''I know he would do anything for me if I ask him to, but the one thing he can never do is to walk in my shoes,'' Mr. Ruiz says of his old friend. ''Achmed does not know what it means to be black.''
Mr. Valdes and Mr. Ruiz have never talked about race. When told of his friend's opinion of blacks, Mr. Ruiz shifts uncomfortably in his seat.
''He said that?'' Mr. Ruiz asks, lifting his eyebrows. ''I don't know why he would think that blacks are delinquents. I know he doesn't think that of me, and I'm black. I've always been black.'' A pause. He thinks some more. ''He grew up with blacks,'' he says. ''I don't understand it. Maybe something bad happened to him. I am sure he is talking about American blacks.''
Mr. Valdes has never told him about his experiences in Miami's black neighborhoods, just as Mr. Ruiz has never told him about the police outside the Versailles.
For Fartun, the tug comes from another direction, from Africa. In Kenya, where she grew up, she made a conscious decision to hide her dark brown locks from public gaze. She was 14, the age when many Somali girls start wearing the hijaab.
It was Eid, an important Muslim holiday, and her mother spread out an assortment of pretty scarves from which Fartun chose one. Admiring her new look in the mirror, she decided to make the hijaab a part of her permanent identity. Only at home among relatives or among women does she take it off.
As Lois washed the blood from the child, she studied her round head, her wisps of light blond hair, the soft expanse of her eyelids, her perfectly formed fingernails, the tributaries of veins stretching under her porcelain skin.
She was gorgeous.
Lois held her, thinking of the first time she held her own two children. She thought about this baby's mother, now down the hall in the intensive care unit, and thought about all the things the child and her parents would never get to experience. Visits from the Tooth Fairy, skinned knees on the playground, a first dance with a boy.
Trying to hold back her tears, Lois silently prayed, asking God to give the girl's family the strength and comfort to get through this loss. She often said this prayer and had it down to three simple words.
Strength and comfort, she said. Strength and comfort.
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